Where am I now?
I guess it's been a long time since... I have reflected, at least on paper. And so I'm writing right now to affirm that 'I really like where I'm at'. I haven't quite been here before, and that's part of the beauty. Constant growth, constant surprises of new life experiences. It is beginning to flood me now, and If I didn't have hope before, then I really have it now. So what I see is an opportunity for brilliance, what held me back before has now given away. I can move to the next level, maybe. No I really think I can. What does this look like, in fact what the hell am I even talking about? Well I guess before I named it Spiritually Integrated Political Action (borrowing off of Paul Levy). Aha. You see I gave a presentation on it, but I couldn't really go anywhere yet with it. "So, what do we do?" was the question; and yes it is a very important question. It makes your dreams a reality. What do I do with this huge feeling in my gut, where do I go? Where do I take it, how can it manifest? That presentation was only to mention its existence, rather to acknowledge its existence. But really it is difficult because I was talking about a feeling; but in conversation (especially academic ones) it only digitizes (textualizes *thanks Della*) what I'm saying. But the problem is how that then substitutes (takes the place of that feeling). Think about how technology ie SMS, Facebook, e-mail takes the place of face to face interaction. It could enhance our ability to connect with one another, but that is just rhetoric, an assumption rather. I want integration not assimilation. My dreams cannot get erased in my words, because then the 2 will never meet. So what can I tell you now that wasn't there before.
[I can talk about William Biddle's concept of the Encourager and his/her role in community development, it is based on actual people. It seems they existed, why we've gotten away from that or where they've gone, or whether or not anybody still uses these methods eludes me now.] But I'd say that I've been searching for something without knowing what it is and NOW I've found it! (and it feels 'so good') Even if I decide later it was wrong, it is too problematic. It won't be without purpose, and I can only hope to grow from it.
This is where I am now, full of life, full of hope. Ready to begin to prepare.
